Cinderalla Cheated...I Don't

I Can Speak

English

I Would Describe Myself As

Close to maybe being able to take this ad offline. Which would be really...fine by me. Very fine. Maybe I'll let my boyfriend (if he is my boyfriend) say how...sweet I was. It was. And to all the guys who waited too long, who didn't write first or back, that they...missed me.

And I was thoroughly free from the qualifications and explanations of being not technically but practically--for this intent and purpose--an almost virgin. It would be so much nicer to not have to say all of what this is. With me, being fem...explicitly. And before just the one and half times with a guy. Perhaps that fraction that's been mine and such a significant part of the whole. (There's a pun there. There in. In there. If...If...If...its not another guy who told me really wanted me when it turns out he was only into kissing. Men! Can't trust a one of them. Or that they'll listen to how you are. Or the kind of things I'm seeking with a guy--not so he'll change [he can't, I can't, not really] just so that he'll be authentically interested. If not with me, then with a girl much like me. Complications and blushes and all--and not the kind of girl that will believe that his erection is here by chance...something that just happens to guys, at random. Nothing to do with me. Or being attracted to me. Or that be attracted to me will make me think he's not "masculine" enough...As if!

I'd much rather have a different explanation accompanying that significant bulge. (And, hmmmm, well, it is an erection, isn't it? Can I see it? I promise I won't touch it. Though I'd rather promise that I will.) Like what of all the things he'd thought about. And don't pret

Nice looking, petite, shy & socially inept, limited experience with men. None to speak of with me being explicitly feminine. And very little practice on my own. Nice body and face to start with, a nicer brain that is quite willing to feel and respond.

Seeking a guy that does not have to the finished girl, all wrapped up.

Limited experience with real time or not there are hours and hours of Emm-Time sims. I am not unsure of what, generally speaking, I am looking for.

I'm well educated (o-chem), know history, philosophy, SF, current events, some Marx.

I am not looking for Republicans, or said to say, most Democrats. Much further Left. Don't want someone that believes in nothing.

Enjoy reading (audiobooks as well), writing, drawing with pen & ink, painting (abstract), photography (if I can get the camera working again), shopping for clothes (online), shopping for clothes in person (if I wasn't alone),

I'm not "versatile", I'm not looking for a once or twice, maybe thrice (I can and do prefer my celibacy). Looking to when I'm looking so fine so we can easily pass in public. To when he's there trying to think of what to say, has "Emm, uhh, Emm, yeah she's my friend. Not like my other female friends...more like a girl friend."

Which would explain the arm around my hips, at least. That and the long conversations, long night drives, long night walks, The phone calls when it is so pouring down rain with cold and past midnight (and so past the last bus off this island)that are just about talking, listening. Acting just I like a girl friend should be. Found that, along with my new sense of fashion, I have other new aspects--ones I did not expect, some I don't know what to do with. Like how it is that I find a guy attractive more because of how well we got along, because of how comfortable I am, how much I trust him, how well I Like him...how brave, loyal, and true he'll be towards me. And I to him. Seek something at least six months (preferably at least 9 or 12). I have a great deal to learn about guys, lots and lots about sex, and even more about how to relate to having a boyfriend, regular sex, clothes shopping, not blushing when he suggests something in the lingerie store, what its like to feel sexy, attractive, wanted naked or not.

Sign

Libra

My Body Type Is

Fit

My Height Is

5' 3 (1.6 m)

My Eyes Are

Brown

My Ethnicity Is

Caucasian

My Marital Situation Is

Divorced

I Have Kids

No

I Want Kids

Not Sure

My Best Feature Is

Eyes

My Hair Is

Auburn / Red

I Have One Or More Of These

Bird

Willing To Relocate

No

My Education Level Is

University Degree

My Current Employment Status Is

Self-employed

My Speciality Is

Art / Music / Literature

My Job Title Is

CEO. Art Director, Artist (all in one)

I Make This Much In A Year

Less Than $14,999USD

I Live

With Roomate(s)

At Home

There Is No Noise

I'm A Smoker

Yes - Socially

I Drink

No

Back In High School, I Was A

Brain

My Social Behavior Is

Reserved

My Interest And Hobbies Are

Arts & Crafts, Internet, Learning, Music, Photography, Reading, Shopping, Travel

My Idea Of A Great Time Is

Going Shopping, Going To A Concert, Going To A Museum, Playing Dress-up, Playing Video Games, Reading A Book, Staying At Home, The Movies, Trying New Things

An Ideal First Date Would Be

Shopping for shoes.

I've Always Wanted To Try

Sex.

My Friends Describe Me As Being

Obscure

My Religion Is

Agnostic

I Attend Services

Once A Month

My Political Views Are

Socialist

My Goal In Life Is

WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

My Kind Of Humor Is

Clever, Dry / Sarcastic, Friendly, Obscure

On Tv, I Always Watch

I Don't Like Tv

When I Go To The Movies, I Always Go To See A

Science Fiction, Comedy, Drama, Adult

When Listening To Music, I Always Listen To

Classical, Folk

When I Read, I Always Read

Ancient, Anthology, Erotica, History, Mystery, News, Philosophy, Political, Reference, Science, Science Fiction

My Idea Of Fun Is

Working on that...
....Well, I suppose it would be more than just fine to just see what it would be like to be on the third or fourth or some-day's date (coffee sunlight, someplace to watch the crowds going by). X asks if I read the note. Note? The one with the flowers. Its wrapped around the stems.
"Oh, mmmm, didn't see it." Pull off the rubber bands. Unroll the letter sizes papers. Three pages I think to myself. Well this will take me a moment, find my coffee, cigarettes. Draw my knees up wrap my arms around them, letter held against one leg, the other arm shifts up a little and my skirt along with it...looking at X, lingering. He asks me if I needed more coffee? No then he did, and I'd have a chance to read his note.
Take a moment then ask; "Are you coming back?" Or did you say too much with this and now its too late?"
"Tempted to. Somewhat" X said. "I was considering that I listened to you too well. Didn't edit...anything."
"And...now I think of the qualifications I'd add and that doesn't necessarily indicate how certain things are really suggestions. Not demands."
Hmmm, pause. "For instance...?"
"For instance?"
"...the ummm, part about spanking...you."
"Mmmm, hmmm. Kind of presumptuos of you,isn't it?" Confident that you can get my skirt, shoes and panties off, are you? And you'd have to catch me first. Bend me over, pin me down."
Instead of standing up to go for coffee, he stands up to step closer to me. Sit down next to me. Quite close. "Well, he said, "I'm not like those other guys who were never really serious. I thought that you wouldn't have a problem finding some thing just right. A provocation." He said that once I see how attractive I was to him, how I excited and aroused and confused and enthralled him.
"What, really? That would be the third time before sunset. Do you really think you're going to ...."

What Do You Find Attractive?

Empathy, Humor, Intelligence, Oddities, Sensitivity, Thoughtfullness, Wit

What Do You Look For?

A guy that I like. Comfortable with, at ease (though I'm not easy & can interact for just a few hours at a time--people make me claustrophobic, often). Imagine not sleeping with him...but imagine how it would be with me, with him, just afterward.
Communication.

What Kind Of Relationship Are You Seeking?

Friend, Date, Intimate, Committed, Other, Oral Sex, Anal Sex, Bondage