to hold the fleeting truth once more

I Can Speak

English, French, Arabic

I Would Describe Myself As

I ve been blessed and now I am leaving
thank you to those who became my friends I finally opend up to some one a few days ago, she asked me why I was here:

When I was in high school, I met the person who changed my life, she was like a butterfly, she did not live long, her name was Jessica, very petite, 16, blonde hair shoulder length, with jade green eyes, her smile lit up the room I can still see her when I close my eyes, we were friends the first year, and she told me she was a transexaul girl, I didn t care she was my friend, my only friend, and then we began to date the second

my Jessica swept my heart into her hands, she taught me what it was to love, to kiss to melt into another without fear,
on the other side, she was harrazed by girls, and guys ( macho ) they never gave her a chance...I was always with her we both took the hate, but being with her made everythingelse stop.
her dad and brothers would have nothing to do with 'her" but her mother loved her dearly the junior year of high school with Jessica was the happiest time of my life, even now this is true.. however eventually all the negativity, and the pressure was too much for her and at the beginning of our senior year without saying goodbye she took her life...I have never forgotten her, nor will I
she was the love of my life.
I have searched all these years for even a small taste of that love again.
I have never found it, she was the one
and so now you know
and
so here I am

here to at least find some real friends








I am 6 ft tall with a slender body, No facial hair, I do have a full head of silver hair, My hazel eyes will never give away my inner self, I don t mind being alone especially when mediatating

I still paint and draw whenever I can, sometimes giving my work away as gifts to special friends, sometimes just for myself
My home is addorned with my 'etchings", painting and drawings
However I love being in the presence of beauties having my face tenderly touched by a hand or lip or even her hair .
I am not here simply for sex I am looking for friends I have made a few and hope we will grow to know one another more

Although sexually I really enjoy having my SHAVED Hard Shaft in a warm mouth AND or hand
I would be happy to return the favour

However at times I think I enjoy kissing more The intimacy of warm firm succulent lips joining and the dance that toungues perform is exciting and erotic as well as fullfilling and I always can espress my affection in public Our life is far too short to hide and ignore who we are and what we want and those in our lives who count should know I hope we make some precious and endearing friendships

Sign

Aries

My Body Type Is

Slim

My Height Is

6' 0 (1.83 m)

My Eyes Are

Hazel

My Ethnicity Is

Caucasian

My Marital Situation Is

Divorced

I Have Kids

Yes - Not At Home

I Want Kids

No

My Best Feature Is

Eyes

Body Art

Wouldn't Even Think About It

My Hair Is

Silver

I Have One Or More Of These

No pets

Willing To Relocate

No

My Education Level Is

College Degree

My Current Employment Status Is

Full-time

My Speciality Is

Medical / Health

My Job Title Is

SUPERVISOR

I Make This Much In A Year

$75,000USD To $99,999USD

I Live

Alone

At Home

All Is Calm

I'm A Smoker

No

I Drink

No

Back In High School, I Was A

Quiet One

My Social Behavior Is

Reserved, Observant, Friendly, Comedic, Flirtatious, Outgoing

My Interest And Hobbies Are

Arts & Crafts, Reading, Learning, Music, Tv, Movies, Internet, Dining, Photography, Travel, Cooking, Gardening, Cars

My Idea Of A Great Time Is

Hanging Out With Friends, Going Shopping, Staying At Home, Trying New Things, The Movies, Relaxing, Sleeping, Reading A Book, Tv, Going To A Concert, Going To A Museum

An Ideal First Date Would Be

THTAT IS RATHER HARD TO SAY, DEPENDING ON THE TIME OF YEAR THE FALL A DAY IN THE PARK PICKNICING AND OR WALKING WATCHING THE SLIGHT WIND BLOW HER HAIR, HER SKIRT, HER BLOUSE,
IN THE SUMMER :A DAY AT THE BEACH, LYING ON A BLANKET FOR 2 SLOWLY APPLYING OIL TO EACH OTHERS BODY LISTNEING TO THE WAVES GOING UP INTO THE DUNES!
IN THE WINTER :A DINNER IN A SECLUDED CORNER WITH CANDLES AND THEN BACK TO MY HOME TO LISTEN TO RYTHEM AND SOUL OF SADE OR SELENA JOHNSON CUDDLING ON THE COUCH DOES SPRING EVER REALLY COME TO LONG ISLAND???

I've Always Wanted To Try

I VE ALWAYS WANTED TO TRY A ROMANTIC DATE WITH A SELF ASSURED FEMININE SHEMALE JUST TO SPEND TIME WITH HER AND HER FEMALE SELF FEELING HER HEAT NEXT TO ME AS SHE EVENTUALLY TOUCHES MY THIGH AS I WILL DO TO HER KISSING HER SMOOTH NECK AND CHEEKS GLIDING MY TONGUE ON HER, AWAITING THE WARMTH OF HER LIPS AND TONGUE.

My Friends Describe Me As Being

Friendly, Someone They Want To Be, Cool, Raunchy, Obscure, Goofy, A Flirt

My Religion Is

Christian

I Attend Services

Once A Week

My Political Views Are

Not Sure

My Goal In Life Is

I attempt to live everyday to the fullest/ to be strong enough never to reach for that 1 drink again ( 17 1/2 years so far) and never be the cause of any hurt to some one and to this end I try to be happy, to view everything as a glass 1/2 full, to be there to hold when needed and to allow another to hold me when I need to be held or they need to hold me
on a continuim of growth striving to be that better me and to share me with those I encounter, to make that difference in anothers life, and only for the good, to love as much as possible and to allow myself to be loved in return

My Kind Of Humor Is

Clever, Dry / Sarcastic, Friendly, Goofy, Obscure, Slapstick, Raunchy

On Tv, I Always Watch

Movies

When I Go To The Movies, I Always Go To See A

Action, Science Fiction, Comedy, Romance, Drama, Horror, Thriller

When Listening To Music, I Always Listen To

Rock, Metal, Electronic, Pop, Classical, Vacuum Cleaner Noises, Blues, Jazz, Latin, New age, Dance, Soul, Reggae

When I Read, I Always Read

Anthology, Biography, Classic, Fantasy, Fiction, Health, History, Home & Garden, Horror, Humor, Instructional, Music, Mystery, Nature, Reference, Poetry, Satire, Science, Science Fiction, Technical

My Idea Of Fun Is

GOING TO THE BEACH/ LONG DRIVES, WALKS IN THE PARK, PAINTING/ DRAWING, GARDENING GOING TO DINNER/ THE MOVIES OR WATCHING DVDS AT HOME
GETTING AND GIVING A HANDJOB ANYWHERE, GETTING HEAD ANYWHERE ANYTIME

What Do You Find Attractive?

Intelligence, Good Looks, Humor, Great Skills, Empathy, Sensitivity, Boldness, Spontaneity, Flirtatiousness, Wit, Thoughtfullness, Passiveness

What Do You Look For?

I ve taken my time thinking this out...I am looking for friends, those rare individuals whose aura lights up the air surrounding them,
who is sweet, soft, stimulating to the mind, the eye and the body some one who will let me enter their world and be as accepting to my failings and foubles as I will be to theirs, a warm touch, a wisp of lip, not afraid to show affection in public, willing to kiss for hours just for the sake of kissing some one who loves the feel of a palm or fingertip just barely passing over her skin the electricity of our bodies is sooo exciting and enjoyable
I have been thru much as many have,, most people I have found, want to mold you and pigeon hole you into their view of the world, not for me . I digress..

let me be me, as I will let you be all that you aspire too
maybe someone out there will see me behind my "ever changing hazel eyes" and if not love me, at least understand me and enjoy me my heart, I have a lot to give, sometimes all a person need

What Kind Of Relationship Are You Seeking?

Friend, Date